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There was a certain feeling you got standing underneath a streetlight. It almost felt like you were a completely different person. To the dull shy girl like me I felt as though life was mine for the taking; I was just waiting for my friends to arrive so we could ride the night wherever it took us.
College wasn't all about books it was highlighted by the random times with a just as random bunch I had met quicker than I had anticipated. We were all quite different really but that's what made our time together better than any influence, though we did reward ourselves with alcohol now and then. Leaving behind high school I now hung out with people who were interesting and caring as well as mature and childish all at the same time. These were the people that made getting off of work that much better. Even though the whole gang couldn't be together all the time there was always someone there. But unlike friends on television we were something different: real.
I remember Marty's 20th birthday when we had a few drinks and spent a night on the town our way. Horsing around the campus square which led to use running into some punks. When they found out it was Marty's birthday we were invited to a dive we never even heard of. Now that was a party. Then there was Michelle's shotty lit professor that almost put her over the edge if it wasn't for our de-stressing days. They usually involved overpriced Japanese pop and 80's or old Kung Fu movies or a marathon of some random anime. She ended up passing with a C+. I looked at the time remembering when we all waited for Brian to finish his last exam so we could start our road trip to someplace not too far before heading back home for the rest of break. I still have the star necklace from that trip, along with several polaroids.
As the bus came to a stop I pulled myself from under the streetlight. I paid my toll and all those memories dissolved back into fantasy as I became that dull shy girl once more.
21 May 2006
07 May 2006
Stopping the Tape
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I let myself go, falling back so fast time had to slow down. This would be my final fall yet it was time. I waited to embrace the void. Something stopped that from happening, something caught me. I opened my eyes and recognized the hardened hands that were holding my sides. I was at a loss for words and didn't' know whether to be thankful or hate him for interfering.
"Liam," I whispered.
"I'm here Elena," he said in such a voice that things became less fuzzy and my view brightened. Looking up in his charismatic eyes I mouthed a question. The answer was put on hold as he lifted me and carried me in his arms to a couch. Liam left the room yet quickly came back with a glass of ice cold water.
"I wish you wouldn't do this." There was solemnity in his eyes as he gave me the glass. I started to drink not realizing how thirty I was; Liam continued. "Things don't have to end this way Elena. You can make it through this and I'll be here by your side to help, if you let me." Taking one of my hands in his, Liam gave it a gentle kiss.
Liam hadn't been in my life long yet he showered me with compassion at every turn. He seemed to be a true angel though I couldn't bring myself to accept his gratitude. The demons had resurfaced, maybe in a different form but still recognizable. I set the glass down.
"Do you know what I was doing out there?"
"Letting go, in the wrong way. You are a star Elena if only you would let yourself shine." I shook my head. I had already made my decision and was too stubborn to turn back.
"You shouldn't even be here." He smiled.
"Except every time I leave you intentionally draw me back. Trust your heart for once." I laughed slightly. It was true, no matter how much I wanted to get rid of Liam I did enjoy his company. There was just something about him I couldn't shake.
"That's not the way I work."
"Well maybe it should start to be." He gave out a long sigh. "Let me help you find your way again. All is not lost if only you'd realize that." I hadn't notice it before but my eyelids were starting to become laden. Liam held my hand close.
"You silently asked why earlier." I locked my eyes on his, trying desperately to keep them open. "Because I care about you and I don't want to see you give it all up." Liam released my hand placing it gently by my side. "You're weak right now so get some rest. I'll be here when you awake. I smiled letting my eyes shut. Where had this guy come from anyway?
I let myself go, falling back so fast time had to slow down. This would be my final fall yet it was time. I waited to embrace the void. Something stopped that from happening, something caught me. I opened my eyes and recognized the hardened hands that were holding my sides. I was at a loss for words and didn't' know whether to be thankful or hate him for interfering.
"Liam," I whispered.
"I'm here Elena," he said in such a voice that things became less fuzzy and my view brightened. Looking up in his charismatic eyes I mouthed a question. The answer was put on hold as he lifted me and carried me in his arms to a couch. Liam left the room yet quickly came back with a glass of ice cold water.
"I wish you wouldn't do this." There was solemnity in his eyes as he gave me the glass. I started to drink not realizing how thirty I was; Liam continued. "Things don't have to end this way Elena. You can make it through this and I'll be here by your side to help, if you let me." Taking one of my hands in his, Liam gave it a gentle kiss.
Liam hadn't been in my life long yet he showered me with compassion at every turn. He seemed to be a true angel though I couldn't bring myself to accept his gratitude. The demons had resurfaced, maybe in a different form but still recognizable. I set the glass down.
"Do you know what I was doing out there?"
"Letting go, in the wrong way. You are a star Elena if only you would let yourself shine." I shook my head. I had already made my decision and was too stubborn to turn back.
"You shouldn't even be here." He smiled.
"Except every time I leave you intentionally draw me back. Trust your heart for once." I laughed slightly. It was true, no matter how much I wanted to get rid of Liam I did enjoy his company. There was just something about him I couldn't shake.
"That's not the way I work."
"Well maybe it should start to be." He gave out a long sigh. "Let me help you find your way again. All is not lost if only you'd realize that." I hadn't notice it before but my eyelids were starting to become laden. Liam held my hand close.
"You silently asked why earlier." I locked my eyes on his, trying desperately to keep them open. "Because I care about you and I don't want to see you give it all up." Liam released my hand placing it gently by my side. "You're weak right now so get some rest. I'll be here when you awake. I smiled letting my eyes shut. Where had this guy come from anyway?
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